Anant

Public Transport

In Uncategorized on November 8, 2009 at 10:40 pm

There is a quietly pulsing part of San Francisco that I just love.

It exists in the wide spaces between post burning man decompression parties at one end and determinedly hipster soy lattes at the other. To find it, walk out the doors of those raw vegan cafes, walls resplendent with jute bags holding grain. Look past the overgrown hair, cute laptops, and caffeinated hand gestures of all those earnest, embryonic iPhone millionaires.

Slip through a costume shop, seductive pink wigs and all, and ignore those girls clustered around a joint. Avoid the unwashed dreadlocks of the amateur poet (and professional consultant) as he sits scribbling aphorisms on napkins for his admiring date. Try not to disturb the couple playing chess in a corner, the tension in their eyes evidently flowing from a source very distant from the game.

Forget the morning bike rides along the bay and into the mountains that will take your breath away, and not because of the cold. Smile vacantly at the young mothers pushing their strollers past a sequence of coffee shops, each brimming with ‘character’, overflowing with bagels. Push away images of a tiny garage hosting an art exhibition, a student concert and a blossoming love affair all at the same time.

Go beyond the activism and the flag waving – always rainbow, sometimes green. Stare through the crowds in an otherwise cookie cutter pub… girl boy girl girl girl boy dog boy girl girl…yes you did see that and no you can’t turn that way again.

Escape those distractions and walk to the intersection at 24th, past the street musician with the badly tuned guitar, and also the one with the ethereal sounding violin. Skip down the stairs that smell of ammonia, of drunk nights, of agony and ecstasy and half digested food. When you hear the tone, you have reached your destination.

8 car train in 3 minutes.

Moving house

In Uncategorized on August 10, 2009 at 12:39 am

It takes time to understand the soul of a city. A certain quiet, patient affection and the desire to explore that which is not obvious. Its a sensual, intimate process – like exploring a human body, caressing a human mind. Linger long enough and both reveal themselves, and sometimes you will fall in love and find that you are home.

So perhaps I have simply not cared deeply enough. Or possibly I have not looked long enough. Whatever the reason, the suburban town I’ve lived in for two years now is as strange and unloved today as she ever was. Hugging a university that beats with vibrancy and life has led her only to retreat further within. Even the metaphor rings false, failing to capture the blandness and superficiality that this little piece of California stands for. A beige snake eating its own tail and the choice of a cliche is the real description here.

I suppose it takes something extraordinary for the whole to be so much less than the sum of its parts. For the interesting, rich and successful to come together in a tepid, pasty porridge of good school districts and farmer’s markets. All busily fighting a grim battle against the east, against unpleasantness and against public transportation (for are not the sweaty hordes outside just waiting for this chance to invade?). Appreciating the soul of Palo Alto (there I said it), is like trying to connect deeply with the business class lounges at Detroit airport.

This is the strangest place I’ve lived in.

An ode to twenty something self indulgent angst

In Uncategorized on May 11, 2009 at 11:37 pm

The bird outside my bedroom window
Will not stop crying.
Screaming a name
A knife through the onion sharp night.

An avian Romeo and Juliet, writhing worm tragedy.
Breeding lousy metaphors
Between shards of shattered silence,
Like so many murmuring mosquitoes.

On a night like this,
The moon is always too bright
Stars too glittery
Lives too taut
Words too awkward

Rhythm and rhyme
Harmony and productivity
Are tuneless ariettas.
Eight minute plays
That end too soon,
or go on too long.

But edgy, chipped free verse?
Origami poetry?
Unmade beds?
Grainy videos and 3am cereal?
They work –
Tracing out a jagged discontinuous line,
A sort of naked, neon truth.

Apparently there’s a gentle flowing river out there
Comfortably clichéd
Refreshing, blue, with rounded pebbles
Upon which yellow sun drops dance
Where life is clear, healthy, organic, simple.
Indeed, insultingly simple.

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Or as bahadur shah zafar said (because you can hardly get more self indulgent than that)

“My heart is not happy in this despoiled land
Who has ever felt fulfilled in this transient world”
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